“Media and National Development”

Last Wednesday, the Perdana Leadership Foundation with Institute of Quality and Knowledge Advancement (InQka) UiTM organised the 6th Perdana Discourse Series with the title “Media and National Development. The event was a full day discourse with an hour keynote address by the Foundation’s Honorary President, YABhg Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohamad, an opportunity for a Questions & Answer session with Tun, followed by a panel discussion and breakout session for the participants. Panelist includes Steven Gan, the editor-in-chief for Malaysiakini.com, Datuk A Kadir Jasin, the editor-in-chief of Berita Publishing Sdn Bhd, Jeff Ooi, citizen journalist from ScreenShots, and a student representative Dr. Kamalan Jeeva, a very well experienced national debater and a vet by practice.

 

Okay, I’ll spare the details, you can visit the Foundations website for more info and even for some pictures of the event – http://www.perdana.org.my

 

I was there, so, I’ll share some visual insights.

 

It was a great event and I met a lot of great people. I had the chance to chat with Dato’ Marina Mahathir (to date, I’m still confused whether its Datuk Paduka or Datin Paduka. Well, I better start calling her ‘MaM’ instead then). And to make my day, she recognised me as for she did asked “how come I haven’t seen your comments for a while now”. Hehehe. Sorry MaM, I got a bit too busy here and there.

 

I had a very great time engaging interesting conversations with people from all fields and most of them are much much older than me, which is simply great.

 

I ended up lepaking at Oldtown Kopitiam in Cyberjaya with a new friend I met as I was walking towards my car and we chatted from 7.00pm till 12:30am. Hahaha. People can really talk, I tell you. Add some caffeine and nicotine and conversations seem irresistibly engaging and endless. But I’m game for great conversations though I’ll end up listening and observing, and its always a great experience.

 

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Yesterday (Thursday) I watched ‘Berbagi Suami’ for the first time. Great movie, nice storyline. And fantastic music. I must get the Original Music Soundtrack. At least they don’t have just ONE theme song which is played throughout the movie over and over again like most of our local films. Come on, there a a lot of great underground bands that can fit in your movie soundtrack, do some research la. Takkan semua nak pakai Jac Victor, Misha Omar atau Siti jer ….

 

My favorite song from the movie of course is “Pergi tanpa Pesan” by Sore. Superb group. What a diverse song range they have. Brilliant musicians!

 

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Well pembaca sekalian, I’m off to “do work”. Lunch time is finishing. (“,)

Lost ….

 

This morning, as I was brushing my teeth, I realised that my locket, the opal stone as a pendant on my necklace, was gone!

 

And, it was gone since yesterday (refer pic: GAMBAR SELEPAS, taken Sunday, April 15th)

 

The white Opal stone was bought in 1988 by mom in Australia.

 

The mineraloid opal is amorphous SiO2┬ĚnH2O; hydrated silicon dioxide, the water content sometimes being as high as 20% but is usually between three and ten percent. Opal ranges from colorless through white, milky blue, gray, red, yellow, green, brown and black. Common opal is truly amorphous, but precious opal does have a structural element. The word opal comes from the Sanskrit upala, the Greek opallios, and the Latin opalus, meaning “precious stone.” Opals are also Australia’s National gemstone.

Opal is a mineraloid gel which is deposited at relatively low temperature and may occur in the fissures of almost any kind of rock, being most commonly found with limonite, sandstone, rhyolite, and basalt.

Opal is one of the mineraloids that can form or replace fossils. The resulting fossils, though not of any extra scientific interest, appeal to collectors.

– information courtesy of wikipedia –

 

I have been wearing the necklace for a good 7 years now, before that, only during Raya holidays, but since 2000, I started wearing it and became attached to it. I only took out my necklace for 2 reasons, X-Ray and to get it cleaned at the jewellery store.

 

I felt lost. I felt incomplete. I haven’t told mom. I’m quite terrified. But I know, things got lost along the journey of our life.

 

I got used to it so much, I never bother to give it a look. When I did, it was gone.

 

Now, I’m wearing the necklace without the great white opal stone.

 

I felt hollow, but I’m not letting go.

 

Let it show, the empty hole at the locket there.

 

Let it show, the hollowness I feel, and the lost that haunts me.

 

I haven’t cried …. not yet.

In search of Peace, we have to Criminalise War

It was an HONOUR, definitely an HONOUR, to be exhausted, to have blisters at my feet, to feel every part of my body aching, to not be able to eat because I had to run around here and there, because I was part of such a remarkable, exciting, interesting, inspiring and EXCELLENT event of the year, the PERDANA GLOBAL PEACE CONFERENCE & EXHIBITION 2007 – “Expose War Crimes, Criminalise War”.

 

I know a lot of you out there, especially those I know personally, couldn’t attend the event because it was held on working days and Profit-Making industry won’t let people take leave to attend events like these. So I thought, I might as well share my experience here, as for sharing knowledge, experience and feelings have become my forte these days (though condemned and criticise, I don’t care shit bout that).

 

The event have taken a whole 6 days of my life out off blogging. Yes. Indeed it had, and was a bit depressing in that sense. Nevertheless, I did manage to “curik” a few moments to run up the Secretariat Room and check the blog to see if anyone misses me. Hehehe. (It was worth the run, I might add).

 

The event, took place in the Merdeka Hall, PWTC from Monday February 5th until Wednesday February 7th. Although I have been doing the job assigned since, February 1st, despite the holiday, have been coming to work, including Saturday and Sunday. I was at PWTC the whole day.

 

It was an incredibly informative forum (now I know that depleted uranium exist – okay, don’t judge me!) and I learned hell a lot, and a lot of it was hell. Especially listening to “The Man in The Hood”, Ali Shalah’s testimony, of his hell experience in the Abu Ghraib prison, how the US Army treated the prisioners, god, WaAllahualam, only God knows how much he had suffered. What amazed me the most, is that he was able to read out the testimony, to tell the story (in Arabic, assisted with the English translation as subtitles), he didn’t break down as everyone else brokedown and cried. When repeating the story, re-telling it over and over again would mean reliving the life he so much wanted to forget. But I told someone, that he was taken in the prison a normal man, now, he’s the strongest man. But there’s more coming ahead, the consequences and risk he’ll be facing for exposing the truth. It is a scary thought but I have faith when I said he has become “the strongest man”, he’ll be able to face things that’ll come his way.

 

There are a lot of things happening in the forum, the incredible individuals that I’ve met. It was totally a Global event. The speakers are so incredibly great, credible and eloquent in their respective field.

 

I think I enjoyed most are the ones from these speakers.

 

Ms Hana Bayaty, who talked about how we should actually support the resistance in Iraq to show how small powers, actually have powers to resist the so-called big powers. Ms Hana Bayaty is a writer and chief editor of Al Ahram Weekly for Iraq and also member of the executive committee for Brussels War Crimes Tribunal. I might just say, she is just so gorgeous, she doesn’t look like an Iraqi, with her exotic Mediterranean beauty, one might mistaken her for an Italian lady.

 

Then, Dr. Christopher Busby, the scientific secretary to the European Committee on Radiation Risk who also edited the recommendations of the ECRR Committee 2003 and also and expert and author on DU. But what would make him memorable is the way he talk (since he is a scientist, one might not expect he would talk casually and freely), and of course, the peace song that he composed and sang in front of the 2000 peace activist who came during his session. He was bombarded with girls coming to him and asking for his autograph as if he’s somekind of a rockstar. But a humble scientist, he said “you don’t know how much this had boasted my ego”.

 

And the last on my list would be Muhammed Umar, Chairman of the Ramadhan Foundation. A Palestinian who have resided in the United Kingdom. And I must agree with him, that all we want is integration. I quote him, “You can be 100% Muslim, 100% Catholic, 100% Jew or whatever, but what we all want is integration” (unquote).

 

There more great speakers, but since I was working in and out of the hall, I could really sit and enjoy their sessions. I did enjoy the knowledge I gained from Dr. Leuren Moret, who is a geosccientist and radiation specialist and had testified at the International Tribunal for Afghanistan in 2003 as expert witness on depleted uranium. She told me, she did the research on depleted uranium for 7 years, and 16 hours everyday during that period. Wow! Simply incredible I tell ya! And she was kind enough to have a picture with me and kissed me luck.

 

I had the pleasure of talking to a participant who came all the way from Dublin, Ireland. Valerie Shortland, a committee member of the Irish Anti War Movement who came here on the invitation of her friend, Mr. Ibrahim Mousawi, a Palestinian who is one of the expert witness on stand during the War Crimes Tribunal yesterday and also the editor-in-chief for Al-Intiqad & Al Manar TV. Valerie shared with me the progress of her movement, how they are petitioning in Dublin against the entrance of war aircraft in their sky territory (okay, I sound stupid, I don’t know the exact term). Valerie right now is off to Bangkok, to join her daughter who volunteered in a government orphanage there, in search of one handicapped Thai orphan with means to sponsor him. I wish her the best of luck in her quest. She might not be able to save 200 children, but saving one would do enough than anyone else who questioned her intention and told her that saving one wouldn’t help the situation in general.

 

The forum have been an eye opener, had encouraged me to work harder.

 

It is a blessing to just work around such aspiring and inspiring individuals.

 

I would also wish the best of luck for Tun Dr. Mahathir who have been nominated by the Congress of Bosnik Intellectuals and two Christian groups the Serb Civic Council from Bosnia and Herzegovina and the Croat National Council for the Nobel Peace Prize.

 

As Ms Cynthia McKinney stated, “Kuala Lumpur is now, the capital for Peace”.

 

So please, don’t call this BodohLand anymore. If any of you would do that again, I’d advise you to find a smarter land to live in.

 

More information can be obtained at the Perdana Global Peace Organisation website and also news can be obtained at the newsroom of Perdana Leadership Foundation portal. In the PGPO website, they promised to upload the mp3 and lyrics for Dr. Christopher Busby’s peace song.

life goes on …. and on … and on …

the trouble with remembering is that you never can go back
the trouble with tomorrow is that I’m living in the past

When You Miss Somebody by Tompi-

Today is my last day driving to work from Sungai Besi. Probably the last day I can wake up at 6am, and leave the house at 7am to get to work before 7.30am. Today was good, I arrived earlier than one of the two people who always arrive ahead of me. (“,)

Starting Monday, I’ll be commuting to work from Selayang. That’ll be Selayang to Putrajaya back to Selayang every single day. In my email to friends, I wrote ‘every freakin’ day’. Heh.

On the bright side, I’ll have more time to sing my lungs out in the car, and I got to really beat the sun this time, maybe not upon my arrival to work, but at least, as leaving the house early, I can see how she rises, I can spare a few moments exchanging goodbye embraces with the moon.

On the darker side, I don’t know how my body would cope. I rarely have the want and desire to eat these days except during the weekends. I rarely take dinner, I eat very lightly in the office, I don’t do lunch, and I bring ‘bekal’ from home, whatever my mom’s maid managed to prepare on the table and sometimes, when I eat them around 10am, they have already gone cold so I don’t eat that much as well. At nights, I would feel hungry, but I rather sleep than go to the kitchen and have something to eat. So, the only energy source would be from whatever scrap of food I manage to take during the day and I will have strong black coffee throughout the day at the office. An average of 3 cups a day. Yes, caffein rules!!!!

The only thing I’m looking forward is just to finally have my own room which I can really decorate as I want. Well, in Sungai Besi, we lived in army quarters, so we can’t really paint of have anything on the walls.

I’m so used to moving every 3 years all my life, and this move, have been the least I’ve participated in. Sangat malas sudah. But my parents, despite having moved for about 14 times throughout my dad’s service, are still strong and it kind of make me look bad. So, I’m trying my best. The constant traveling to move the books and stuff back and forth Selayang-Sungai Besi is really draining my pocket, fuel consumption, horrendous!

But the fact, in a way, I managed to squeeze in a few forbidden pleasures along the sideway, then its okay.

Its just tiring thinking of the future traveling!

okay, I need my second cup of black coffee now!

Come 2007

I’m not big on resolutions.

The only thing I’m proud of to start the new year, is a great chat with a good friend and this morning, I did what I love most, even before I fell in love with writing.

I danced like I haven’t dance for years.

I danced to Boogie Wonderland from the Happy Feet soundtrack with Brittany Murphy on vocals and I even did the “konon” tap dance without the tap shoes. Just to get my legs going, following the beat and must I admit, I would make a good tap dancer, ahah.

Then, I danced to Justin Timberlake’s My Love. And Nelly Furtado’s Promiscuous.

I sweat like a pig. But I love it. Starting the day with something I was before, a dancer. I was a dancer before I started to write.

I love it.

2007 should be good from now on.

InsyaALLAH.

Happy New Year people, much love from my big heart.

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